Lately, it has been hard to sit down and gather my thoughts "on paper." The daily life has changed dramatically for my family and me since the beginning of the pandemic. The quiet alone time now is a luxury I can rarely afford.
Most of my days follow a very predictable routine. We wake up, have breakfast, go for a walk, then playtime and lunch. After lunch, my little one naps, and after she wakes up, the morning routine repeats itself. Around 8:30 PM, our children go to bed. Before the pandemic, that would be the time when I would do the majority of my writing and editing, but not now.
By the end of the day, I am exhausted emotionally and physically. I still do a few housekeeping items like loading a dishwasher, laundry, cleaning up around the house. But nothing creative comes to me—no new ideas or exciting thoughts to share.
Although staying in is hard, I am glad that we are all safe and healthy. I also learned a few surprising things about our children. It turns out; they are amazing friends. It warms my heart to see how they care for each other. Of course, they still fight and fully immerse into sibling rivalry every once in a while. But they do care genuinely about each other.
Second, I realized how lucky I am to have a front-row seat to watch our children transform. It is scary to think that they are no longer helpless babies. They grow, learn, change, and become little individuals so quickly that makes me happy to know I am spending so much time with them during the lockdown. It is truly a priceless time.
The downside of all this family time is that I can hardly find alone time. Yet I have to keep trying.
Without "me time," I cannot get in touch with my thoughts and emotions. Inspiration and new ideas get drowned by everyday problems and family chores. Imagination takes a back seat as I move on autopilot to perform what is needed.
And I am not complaining as I know that many people have harder times than we do. But I need to learn new ways to stay motivated, inspired, connected, and authentic.